The last time that I really took note of the Lionsgate Portal was in 2015 when the gateway formed a perfect 888 in numerology, in fact, that was the first time that I had ever connected to the Lionsgate Portal. I suspect my lack of connection with this particular energetic portal is due to it's high Leo and sun frequency. I only have Leo in the 11th house of my astrological chart and other than that I have no Leo influence in my chart at all, in fact, throughout my 12 planets I have only one fire sign in total. Because of this lack of fire in my energetic make-up it has taken a good long while for the element of fire and I to develop a relationship and an even longer while for me to become comfortable in the lessons and energy of the summer season.

 

The deeper I have worked with medicine of the Wheel of the Year and the more diligent I have been about integrating the aspects of self that do not come naturally to me, the closer I have come to the fire element and the summer season blessings and lessons. I have been able to not only endure, but embrace and not only succumb to but ignite my own activating, illuminating and purifying fire energy within. As I have stepped into my fire essence and risen up to meet the summer season I have grown beyond experiencing the active energies of fire and summer as irritating and temper inducing and merged into the smouldering, all consuming Light that is this season. Where I once judged Leo with disdain as arrogant, insecure and shameless I now admire Leo as a being of radiant self-love with an unapologetic need for others and an innocence that comes with the Leo's unconditional shining. 

 

Fire and Leo have taught me to lighten up, to brighten up, to play and to open my heart in boldness and openness. As a naturally confident Scorpio I am not prone to define Leo as confident as most others might. Regal and open, absolutely, however, there is a tender need to be seen and validated that belongs to the Leo soul which a Scorpio doesn't possess, Scorpio has the ease of confidence that Leo attempts to exude and Leo has the courage that Scorpio desires to possess and open her heart into. This quality of courageous open-heartedness that the Leo archetype possesses is what I believe has led me towards this year's Lionsgate Portal, the courage of the Lioness to open her heart and live an exposed life, something completely contradictory to what this Scorpio phoenix has ever done, is inviting me to shed another layer of ego distinction and step into a freer expression of my Source self.

 

This past month I have been diving into learning about my North Node dharma, which is in Cancer. I have been really delving into what it is that my soul is here to accomplish through my North Node, funnily enough Leo teaches Cancer and so Leo has much to teach the Cancer North Node that I possess. My mantra has been "soften, soften," and I often here the words "The Tao of Softness," running through my mind. As I've been opening up to soften I've begun to notice how quickly I shield others from witnessing me anytime that I may cry. Crying from sadness or being moved in and of itself is something that happens very infrequently for me, though I've been intending to open the shell of my heart and allow tears to flow more often, yet I am finding that when they do come I quickly tuck them away if another is present. This is where I think of the bold Leo Queen, shedding her tears in great boo-hoo sobs and allowing all of her subjects to tend to her as she mends whatever it is that has wounded or moved her to tears. Leo knows how to express and be seen from her open heart, that is what I have very little ability in and where I feel myself being called to become a student.

 

The Lionsgate Portal is a portal that ushers in higher frequency messages and learning from the star of Sirius, (much more practical information about this gateway can be found here: http://foreverconscious.com/lionsgate-portal-august-2018) these frequencies are heart activating and third eye awakening, for myself I am feeling this energy coming into my heart and really challenging me by asking "just how open are you willing to be? Just how raw?" and, "how much of your ego identity are you willing to throw into the wild flames of the Lionsgate Portal?" I am just now starting to recognize that it is my ego that has shelled over my heart, contained it, utilized restraint and properness to dam up the untamed river of love that is churning within my heart-space. The heart-space is unconditioned, it is unconditional, there are no levels of love in the heart, it is pure, unadulterated love for each being that one encounters, this means that the passionate all-consuming ardor that one has for their lover also exists for the cashier ringing in their groceries or the driver of the bus. For years I have associated myself as an introverted being who only shares bits and pieces of her heart with a select few, this is how I've identified myself, I am now starting to recognize that parts of this wall that I have up have nothing at all to do with being introverted and everything to do with being guarded by my ego. My heart-space by nature is just as wild and exposed as anyone else's it's just been dammed up for years.

 

When I tap into this energy of wild and unrestrained love I have a memory that pops up in my mind, a memory that I have carried deep within my tender Scorpio heart for years cloaked in shame. Just to think of this memory would make red rush up to my cheeks and the dam within my heart shut with a thump. In my memory I am eleven years old and I am in my school gymnasium on a Saturday afternoon, I am watching my very best friend play a game of volleyball, her school and my school are in competition. I am aware that there is a divide as I want to cheer for my school and also have extreme loyalty to my best friend (a cool and appropriately behaved Virgo), as I watch the game and cheer equally for both sides (my lovely Libra rising) time seems to stand still as I see the ball come flying over the net and hit my best friend, I can't remember where it hit her, her head, her stomach, perhaps her arm? I can't remember because all I saw was the ball hurling towards her and her hitting the gymnasium floor, I didn't even think or have a moment to process what was happening as my body jumped into action of it's own accord. I remember that as her body hit the ground my body was in the air jumping down from the stage and rushing onto the court, falling to my knees by her side, ready to cradle her and ensure that she was okay. As I landed on my knees by her side I became immediately aware of a sense of awkwardness that hung in the air. Silence seemed deafening as the teachers and my friend stared at me in disbelief and I was left frozen in the midst of what was being regarded as a huge overreaction on my part, in actuality my friend was fine and ready to jump to her feet and continue playing once the spaz that she brought to watch her play (me) got off the court and allowed her to go back to playing. I had embarrassed her and humiliated myself. 

 

When I return to my heart and allow the dams to loosen their grip on that wild river within it, that memory is leading the way, that energy, the passionate love that is ready to dive into a crowd and fall to her knees to ensure that another is cared for and loved, that embarrassingly open and exposed courageous heart that protects and leads others that the Leo Queen so naturally wears as a badge of honour is the lesson that my Cancer North Node is opening me into. As I soften I am compelled to revisit my heart, to re-examine why it is shielded and to put the ego that has stood guard all of these years to rest. 

 

The lie that my unfettered love is too much, too extreme and embarrassing is false and I am throwing that old belief into the flame. It is nobody's fault that that day on the court neither the teachers, nor my friend knew how to embrace my passion, how to define my actions as the beauty of devotion and recognize the level of commitment to serve others in their times of need as the gift of a warrioress' love. Nor was it my fault for not being able to own that expression of unrestrained love as power instead of internalizing the energy of those that did not know how to receive me as shameful. That I created a lie from that situation was nobody's fault, it is simply an unfinished invitation to own the power of my radiant, extreme, gushing heart. My love is not too much, love can never be too much. I am not too much, there can never be enough of me.

 

This is not a comfortable process for me. If not for the unceasing purpose of awakening to the deepest depths of my Source self that has kept me alive and pushing forward all of these years, I would simply go back to sleep behind the walls of my heart. However, I was born into this world with the red pill halfway down my throat, my first cry in this world was an awakened cry. I recognized at once that I was in wonderland and had travelled down the rabbit hole into a simulated reality, there has never been a moment in my life where I was not aware of this fact. It took me 18 years of being incarnated before I realized that there was a way to be liberated from within this matrix and from that moment onwards there has not been a thing I have been able to fully turn my back on if it promised to be another step closer to stepping into my Mastery and Awakening out of this reality.

 

This next step is very uncomfortable, and so, I am stepping into this Lionsgate Portal with my heart turned starwards, allowing my Priestess self to call in the As Above energy, directing it down into the depths of my heart. I am calling on the courage of the Leo Queen archetype to burn away the dam that has been holding back the force of my love and I am consciously tapping into the radiant heat and activation of the summer season to reignite my exposed and expressed love to it's highest expression.

 

Today I step into the fires of exposure, openness and complete consumption of my hard working ego, I allow her to die into the flames of my radiant heart and to rise from the ashes as a reborn phoenix, fully transmuted back into Love. I intend to soften and to emote as loudly and as proudly as the Sovereign Queen that I am.

 

Blessed Activations All.

 

Grace Be With You,

Priestess of Grace,

Candise Soaring Butterfly

 

 

artwork "Lion Queen" by David Benzal

 

 
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The Lionsgate Portal is considered a gateway into the heavens and into higher realms of consciousness. During this time, higher frequency energies from the star, Sirius are beamed down onto Earth, in order to help advance the human race and raise the consciousness of the planet. The Lionsgate Portal is activated every year on August …