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You know, there are times when I feel like I have nothing to contribute to Paganism.  I've gotten a lot out of it, but then I think to myself: What happened?  No, I don't want this to be all normal and easy to digest, I want it to be mysterious and exciting, and for some reason, it isn't anymore.

Why do I feel as though what I have to say isn't special? I'm scratching my head on this one, because it's an important part of my motivation to keep my blogs-that what I'm saying is important and useful.  Maybe I'm having my mid-Pagan crisis or something.  But where went the power and majesty of worshipping the Moon and the forbidden Gods? Because let's face it; what we do is forbidden by mainstream culture. 

I'm particularly at a loss with trying to connect classical music to Pagan culture-even though it's my specialty, somehow I feel like I can't write for the Pagan audience. I just don't know enough about their musical skill or what they'll accept. 

Is anyone else annoyed that Norse traditions are so vociferous and plentiful? What about the other Pagan Deities? How come this happens? Are there just not enough voices for other Pagan Deities, or are They not crying out to be spoken of? I'm not sure. I don't know.

This is just my moment of doubt.  Thank you for sharing it with me.


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Amarfa has been studying the occult, wicca, and paganism for 17 years and counting.  She has been a musician since age 5, studying first guitar, then accordion for 10 years, placing 2nd in her division in the 1995 ATARI/ATAM New England Regional Competition,  and has been studying voice for 9. She has directed small early music ensembles, performed publicly, and starred in local theatre works, particularly the World Premiere of Nightsong, a musical theatre piece with direction and book by Jon Brennan and music by Kari Tieger and Kevin Campbell, as well as composing a musical of her own and writing music in her spare time.


  • Carl Neal
    Carl Neal Thursday, 17 April 2014

    We all have our moments of doubt and feelings of disconnection. One thing that helps me in those times is to reflect on how I came to this path and the feelings of joy I have found there. I sometimes doubt that my contributions to the Pagan Community have any significant impact or if they even make a difference at all. Then I think about how I would feel if I were to stop doing these things. In the end, I find them fulfilling in and of themselves even if nobody notices or my efforts fail to change the universe or reveal new mysteries.

    Contribute what is in your heart and don't worry about trying to force it to connect with Paganism. When you stop trying you just might find that the connections form themselves. Even if that is not the case, you are still being true to your heart and whatever comes of it will be of value to you. Perhaps expressing your own doubts will lead you to valuable insight about your path and studies. From such doubts amazing art can arise.

    To me, doubt simply means that you have the insight to consider what you do. It's normal and healthy.

    Bright Blessings!

  • Gabriel Moore
    Gabriel Moore Thursday, 17 April 2014

    I agree with Carl on doubt. In addition doubt slows us down and makes us consider our intent and actions. To many have forged ahead with no regard to what they were doing, usually to a bad outcome.

    What you have to say may not seem special or important, to you. But if you move through life with love and speak with love you will positively impact everyone. There isn't anyone that you will ever talk to, that will read one of your blogs, or listen to your music that you will not influence is some way be it big or small. So I guess that means what you have to say really IS important and special.

    I would suggest you may be overthinking the tie of your music to Paganism. You are Pagan, you make music, so the music you make is Pagan!

    Blessed Be

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