Among the Yakut people of Siberia, Ajysit is known as the Comforting Mother Goddess of Childbirth and Fate. It is she who guides children into the world through the process of birth, who comforts and assists with labor and birth, and who writes down the name of each newly born child in her Golden Book of Fate. It is said that calling out to Ajysit helps to ease the pain of labor contractions. She is also said to bless breastmilk so that it will be nourishing to the newly born.

While I have never had children of my own body and do not plan to, I spend a good deal of my time surrounded by midwives, doulas, and other birth professionals. (I joke that I spend a lot of time with a lot of people who spend a lot of time looking at other people's vaginas in a professional context, but I digress.) In working with, worshiping with, and simply knowing and loving people whose primary job it is to support labor and birth, I've come to believe that there are many times in our lives when we need a midwife -- not just when we are birthing a human child. In fact, one of my dear midwife friends calls me a "storycatcher" -- as she said once, "You know how I catch babies? You catch stories. You stay with people while they labor to get their stories out, and make it safe for them to birth them into the world." And so I do my own type of midwifery as a priestess, helping people, especially women, birth themselves into being. 

And I'm in the midst of birthing myself -- as perhaps we all always are -- as I adjust to a new time of life, a new pattern of life, a new vision for my life. Moving out of survival mode and into an abundant, creative time is at times frightening, not unlike labor. I know I am birthing something new, but am not sure when it will emerge into the full light of day. And I sometimes labor under the impression that I am doing this alone. But like Tara last week, Ajysit reminds me that help is always there -- I only have to call out for it, to look for it, and it will arrive. 

Some questions I'll consider this week, as a labor with Ajysit by my side, and which I invite you to also consider:

What am I birthing right now?

What fears  do I have about this?

What could help allay those fears?

What kind of help could I ask for?

What can I do to take care of myself during this time of transition and change?