I have been going through many challenging days lately. Many make me question my path, my career, and where we live. Life is suppose to test you, sometimes daily. But, man oh man, I've been feeling as though it's tests are getting harder, and I am getting older and don't feel as strong.
My Mother Path
My path through discovering myself as a mother, teacher and self.
Laurie Novotny
I try to remind myself of this as I glide through my day. A shadow grabs my attention and I try to catch a glimpse of what or who it might be. Then I catch myself. If this happens and I’m out in public, I don’t want to look like a fool. If I am at home or out in my yard, I watch, and talk. “Who are you? Can I help you?” Sometimes I whisper, sometimes I talk in a normal tone.
They don’t scare me. They never have. Only once have I been startled by one and that was only because they came too close.
...I try to remind myself of this as I glide through my day. A shadow grabs my attention and I try to catch a glimpse of what or who it might be. Then I catch myself. If this happens and I’m out in public, I don’t want to look like a fool. If I am at home or out in my yard, I watch, and talk. “Who are you? Can I help you?” Sometimes I whisper, sometimes I talk in a normal tone.
They don’t scare me. They never have. Only once have I been startled by one and that was only because they came too close.
...The breeze blew down from the top of the mountain pushing its way through the heat and humidity. It rushed through her kitchen window filling the small room with the smell of crisp cool air. Blowing her hair back off the tackiness of her face and neck as she stood there washing dishes. The room had a slight relief from the heaviness of the air.
She looked out the window and up thought the trees. There she saw the storm taking shape.
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It’s strange, I moved away from this small town and loved living in the larger city. More people, anonymity, and lots and lots of self-exploration. I never once decided that I was going to give up or give in and move back. The thought actually had never crossed my mind.
...I had mentioned in my last blog post that would be pulling one rune a week to learn more about them. My first rune was Perthro, Peorth. A rune of mystery and change. Which was the perfect rune to begin with, I was starting out learning and studying the mysteries of these runes. It was a beginning for me, a beginning full of mystery.
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I’ve been spending a lot of alone time lately since my work has decided to send me to training an hour and a half away from home. I’m staying there through the week to save on the travel time and gas money. Lacking the responsibility of housework and kids, I felt myself starting to bounce off the walls a bit. The small apartment that I am staying in doesn’t have a TV, nor a radio. Sure, I can listen to Pandora on my phone, as well as search YouTube for songs and videos. Then there is my laptop. I can stream and search using the wifi that is connected to my work’s system. But, I needed to be careful as they review sites that people go on. That limits my searching and researching ability.
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