Druid Heart: Living a Druid Life
Living life from a Druid's perspective
Elen - the Wild Spirit
She is with me - I can feel Her as soon as I step out the door. She calls to me, she pulls me further away from the houses of humanity, deeper into the wilds; the windswept heath, the dark forest, the bright birch glades. I smile and answer her call with a song in my heart, my footsteps getting lighter and lighter as I head out to meet Her. I walk taller, with more grace, my body flowing and moving without the restrictions that are usually placed upon it. I feel an almost eldritch tingling in my blood - the awen is awakened.
My sense of self fades away, sloughing off in evanescent shades flowing behind me to melt into nothingness. I blend in with my surroundings - wearing faded greens and browns but also my personal space, my nemeton, dissolving into the land around me. This dissolution, this immersion in the landscape brings me closer to Her.
Each step is a sacred prayer. Gentle, aware, heel rolling to toe, I feel the earth beneath my feet. This land is holy ground. The air is sweet, tinged with scents of Spring and I see it reflected in the budding narcissus, the already blooming crocus. The birds have changed their songs to those that speak of warmth and sunshine, soft rains and the greening.
My joy in Her flows out of me and back inwards in an endless cycle. That joy is a quiet joy - there is no need to shout, no need for a fuss. It is pure, it is simple. It is utter awareness of the present moment, and the present moment is all that there is.
I look into the shadows beneath a stand of low pines, and there they are - her children. A small herd, of about a dozen, lie beneath the darkened canopy where no footpaths lie. Here they can rest undisturbed. I greet them ever so softly with my mind - I do not enter into myself to do this - it is merely an honouring and acknowledgement of their beauty without breaking the immersion in the present moment.
I continue on, blessed by the gift of seeing her children. I know that I will see more. I know too that I am of Her, related to Her, to her children. She is within me and I am within her. The deer are within me and I am within them. I only have to open my awareness to this to see the brilliance of this blessed gift. So simple, so easy.
The sunlight is warm upon my skin, the breeze is cool, playing with my hair and scarves, making them dance in the wind. I come to a very special place, and there they are - a herd seventy strong. They see me and wait - I wait also, allowing them the first move. The leaders are then startled by something, and they run across the open grassland from forest cover to the cover of brush, all in a line, along a sacred trackway that they have made over hundreds of years. This is Her trackway, and I watch with soaring spirit as they follow the flow of spirit across the heath.
I go to the birch trees to offer my greetings and leave a gift - a brilliant white egg-shaped stone I found amongst the heather. I then make my way back across the heath, coming across the trackway that cuts the green sward in half. I can still feel their energy - their silent, swift energy running towards the pine trees and dried bracken. As I cross that line, I feel it moving through me, and I swirl it through my soul before letting it run free again along the deer path. I am filled with golden light.
I can feel Her eyes upon me, watching from the forest edge. Her antlered head is thrown back with laughter, Her green eyes dancing even as my soul dances. Silently she shares in my joy and I in Hers, and then she disappears.
I make my way back towards home - there are a couple of deer hidden among the brush near to one of the paths I wish to take. I do not want to startle them - I choose another path. Moving along the forest edge I look up, and see the large herd again, this time ghosting through the trees, running silently and swiftly between the beech trunks, flashes of light and darkness. I bend down where I stand and bring my hands to the rich mossy ground. Looking down, my pale skin shines silver-white in the light against the vibrant green of the soft carpet, as if moonlight, not sunlight shone upon them. I close my eyes and breathe deep into the earth, giving of myself to Her.
Making my way homewards, I am always loathe to leave Her sacred ground. She is always within my heart, and always within my spirit - a sense of wildness, of laughter and play, of wariness and strength. She is muted when indoors, but She is there, deep within my soul even as I greet my Lady of Sanctuary upon entering the home. She smiles and reaches out to her Sister, Nemetona, the Lady of the Sacred Grove.
She is Elen, the wild goddess. I honour Her with all that I am.
Photo credit: Keeper of the Forest, by Rania Maria
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