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My wife and I have made profound changes in our lives through green Paganism and simple, ecological living, which have resulted in unforeseen, yet very positive opportunities for peace, joy, laughter, and success. In fact, these opportunities have been so powerful, that I was stirred to share them with others, and not keep all these amazing discoveries to ourselves. We 'unplugged from the matrix' that is the cause of so much distraction and busyness in our lives and created a magickal Pagan homestead. I will share some of these discoveries of how, as a Pagan, you can simplify your life, while living more in sync with your purpose, nature and open up an incredible world of opportunity and possibility.

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Magick in Tears


I'm currently going through an emotionally painful time in my life, which includes plenty of tears, and I'm not ashamed or afraid to admit that. It has got me thinking about a lot more about my future, my place in this universe, and not only what my spiritual path means to me, but where it's headed. I foresee a lot of change this year in my life, and it scares me. Recently, while having one of my less formal 'morning chats' with one of the goddesses, I broke down and began to cry at the overwhelming pressure and fear.

Rather than all the selfless stuff I usually say, like asking for help for other people, asking her to comfort those who've recently lost someone, I instead asked for help for myself. I couldn't even help it, I just sat there crying, and asked for strength, comfort, and reassurance that I'd make it, that I wouldn't end up homeless or living out of my twelve year old PT Cruiser.

For only the third or fourth time in my life, I felt the direct presence of that divine force, and it held me in a comforting embrace. I'm convinced that the authenticity of my tears, pain, and uncertainty were the root of this experience. I still don't know how this chapter in my life ends, I don't know where the plot twists, but I'm convinced that not only will I come out of this better that I was, but that the divine is walking beside me to help me back up if I stumble.

It's been a very long time since I felt that kind of connection with the gods, and the one that I was hoping to cultivate on our "Pagan homestead". How ironic that it's only now, when that homestead vision seems at its most unlikely, that I felt even a hint of this connection.

I've been living in the rural woods of southern Missouri for several years, but in the next few months, I'll be uprooting my life, walking the path alone once more, and moving to the Wilmington, NC area, a drastically different environ. I'm looking forward to rediscovering the magick and energy of the ocean, which I've not really had the opportunity to experience since I was a teenager living on Guam.

I raise my drinking horn to all the wanderers and adventure-seekers out there, and to the gods who watch over us all. May your path be ever-winding, and always lead to grand adventures!

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Peter is an American of British and German ancestry who lives in Missouri with his wife Mary, where he is (re)discovering his connections with nature and the Gods. When he's not tending to their homestead, which feeds his family and provides an expression of gratitude and work in veneration to the Gods, he writes for several blogs, and works as a freelance artist/graphic designer. Having many years of experience in various forms of occult systems, including Asatru, Celtic, and Dragon Hollow Wicca, and Witchcraft, Peter finally found what he had been looking for all his life in a blend of Traditional Witchcraft (the nameless art), Heathenry and personal gnosis/exploration (vision/mystic).


  • Carol P. Christ
    Carol P. Christ Sunday, 02 March 2014

    Bless you Peter. I too have known the despair you feel now. I am so glad you felt the arms of the divine power holding you through it. Thanks for sharing this.

  • Peter Beckley
    Peter Beckley Tuesday, 04 March 2014

    Thank you, Carol.

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