Awakening the Nonhuman
The spring I was seventeen years old, eleven years ago now, was one of the most significant of my life. I was a high school junior, anticipating my senior year and preoccupied with mundane matters like taking tests, and applying for college. I had just started a new relationship with a guy who introduced me to the Internet, Paganism and magic. He also introduced me to the concept of Otherkin.
I’d just had my primary totem, Wolf, come back into my life after giving Horse a few years to get me through my awkward junior high years. I didn’t know these entities were totems at the time; I just knew that these animals had very strong influences on me. Wolf had been with me my entire life, and unlike Horse I felt Wolf was not only a guide, who I really was inside. I didn’t have a concept to explain what I felt — until I found out about Otherkin.